Advent

Oh my goodness! It has been forever! We had to get a new computer, if that is any excuse. But now I am back and ready to catch up! I feel like I have so much to catch up on I am not sure where to start.
Steve just got switched to graves, so that is interesting. In some ways it is really nice. He is now able to go to church, so I am not trying to wrestle both boys by myself anymore! that is a plus for sure, but he works the night before, so he is basically a zombie at church!

I have long been wanting to make an advent calendar for Christmas. I decided to just do it this year. You want to see??? Really? okay.

As you can see, it is unfinished. I still have to figure out the backing and attach the pockets to it. But, I think it is really coming along. I made all of the patterns myself, and I saved all of the templates, if any of you want to make your own. I am most proud of my reindeer and penguin. You may be wondering about some of the ornaments. like the volcano? or the pokemon ball? or the football? not really traditional Christmas ornaments, right? well, there is a reason for that. I decided I wanted to personalize it a bit each year. So I thought about what my boys are most interested in right now. Logan loves volcanoes and (currently) wants to be a vulcanologist (among many, many, many things.) Bronson loves pokemon. and of course, Steve loves football. (the heart was chosen for me by my boys) So I made personal ornaments for each, and next year I will make new one and update our advent. 

Well, I am tired of typing, for now. I will try and post again really soon. 

August craziness

(wrote this a few weeks ago but blogger was not cooperating)

Well, hello again. I know I have been slacking. Life has been pretty crazy. I will try and catch up.

Logan starts first grade tomorrow. *sigh*  I keep telling my kids "no more growing", but they don't seem to listen!

My youngest sister, Becca, got married on the 13th. I made her gift. I think it turned out pretty great. I will show you.

Oh, also Steve and I both turned 30. yes. the big one. Three Oh. I was really dreading it. Steve didn't really care.

We have done some fun things lately. we went to the zoo with Steve's family a few weeks ago, ( I will post some photos, sometime!) and just this last Friday we took the boys to the Hill aerospace museum. They loved it. they even got to make and launch their own rocket. We will have to go again.

Okay on to the pictures.

For Becca and Sam's gift I knew exactly what I wanted to do. I had seen this picture on Pinterest. She does a great tutorial, so if you want to make one go to her blog. 

I don't know if you can tell, but the 'w' is made with paper. I thought it turned out great! Time consuming and frustrating at times, but worth it!

hello from north ogden!

just a real quick post to let you all know that we made it here safe and sound and semi-sane! we are renting a townhome in north ogden. the whole thing happened pretty suddenly, but we are hoping it is all for the best. i am so sad to say goodbye to all my wonderful friends in st george, but so happy that steve got a job and as a bonus we now live close to tiffany and ashlee! i will post more soon, when my house isn't in complete chaos!

Packing.......

Yup. That is about all we have been up to for the last two weeks. It has been really rough being down here without Steve but we are making it and becoming stronger! We have been blessed with amazing friends who have been taking care of us and helping us in any way they can. We are moving this Saturday. We weren't planning on moving until the end of the month but I hate being down here all alone. I am not cut out for single parenting!

 

This is what my living room looked like a few days ago. It is much worse now!



I found this while I was packing the garage. This is the "Jersey" that Logan used to wear to Steve's football games while he was playing for Snow. So cute! Hard to believe he was ever that small!



We also found Steve's high school football helmet. The boys were so adorable trying it on.





Logan in Daddy's helmet.



Sunday on our own

Wish me luck! In about 2 hours I will be attempting to take the boys to church by myself. This ought to be interesting! They are a handful when it is both Steve and me.

Got a few more boxes packed, and about half of the wall decor. My house it a disaster, and I don't see it improving anytime soon. Oh well. All for a reason, right?

neighbors

The hardest part about moving is leaving our friends. We have been so blessed in the short time we have been here to make some really wonderful friends, and I am so sad to leave them. They have been going above and beyond trying to help, and take care of my boys and me while we are so far from Steve. Such a blessing.

We just have one car, and Steve has it with him in Ogden. So I have been worried about things like grocery shopping, and getting to church. Some friends of ours went camping for the weekend and offered to let me use their second car until they get back. They didn't have to do that, they are just ridiculously sweet like that. Another wonderful friend gave me 20-25 great boxes to use, and her packaging tape. She has been such an emotional support to me, I am so sad to not see her everyday.

Man, I am a wreck. Literally tearing up as I sit here writing about how blessed we are. I am so grateful that we have had a chance to know these neighbors of ours, even if it wasn't for nearly long enough.

July 1st

I woke up today feeling a twinge of sadness. Not for how things are. I would be very ungrateful if I wasn't happy with how blessed we are lately. The sadness I felt was for what could have been.

Today would have been our baby's 2nd birthday. Steve and I would likely be starting to have conversations about having a fourth. I was surprised that today snuck up on me. I guess over time the pain has finally started to really fade. I certainly still want more children. I even still get teary eyed when I think/talk about it too much. But I am past the point of crying about it out of the blue. Sometimes it is still hard for me to be excited when yet another person announces their "totally unplanned, got pregnant without even trying" pregnancy, but at least I can be genuinely happy for them now, even if I am still jealous that it isn't me.

I guess that is what it comes down to at this point, for me. I am happy for those who are having babies. Along with that though, I am sad that it isn't me.

I hope at some point we will be there again, but for now I think that it just isn't supposed to be. For whatever reason. And when it is supposed to happen for us, it will. Whether biologically or through adoption, I truly believe we are meant to have more children. Just not right now. Someday.