holding hands

Bronson loves to hold my hand.

random crying

Today has been a very hard day. I know I haven't talked about much but this miscarriage has completely turned my life upside down. Church is the hardest. So many babies and pregnant women. I just dread going. I keep thinking that I have things under control and that I am getting over it only to start crying all over again. I sat there during the whole RS lesson (which was on hope) and just bawled. Mind you that we have only been in this ward a few weeks and I don't know anyone. So everyone is looking at me like 'who is this crazy lady?'. During the RS lesson one sister said spoke up about her miscarriage being a low point in her life and that totally resonated with me. I felt like I needed to let her know what I was going through. I went up to her after class and we just cried and bonded over what never was. It sucked. It was great. She then came to my house in the evening and brought me this beautiful poem and a picture of Christ cradling a tiny baby. We talked for a long time. Crying for a lot of it. It is just so nice to feel like other people really understand what I am feeling. I know a lot of women who have gone through this and I never had any idea of how hard it was. I have so much more admiration for anyone who has had a miscarriage. I always thought if it happened to me I would be logical and unemotional. Uh, yeah. Not so much. It isn't like I am a total wreck all of the time. I'm not. But anytime I tell someone who doesn't know I totally break down. I think that it is okay. I think that I need to be okay with random crying. Maybe I will become better at appreciating how blessed I am. "Come What May, and Love It."

Table: before and after

We bought our kitchen table and bench for $20 and I have been wanting to paint it black forever. Today I finally got around to it and I am really pleased with the results. I have several more projects that need to be done, but it is always nice to get one actually finished!

Logan can read?

Here is a short video of Logan reading his first book all by himself. He just got this book yesterday! (thanks, Grandma Jackie!) He is already loving it and showing off for whoever will let him. Enjoy!

Sleeping Bronson

Some Cabo

I have been waiting to blog about Cabo until I had the pictures to illustrate it. Long story short, we just got the pics today. I know there are a lot here, and I apologize for that, but beware, this is but a fraction and there are actually more to come. Once we get the dolphin pics I will have to blog those too, but i think there are only 2 or 3 of those.

First off when we landed in Mexico we saw a 'celebrity'! (I say 'celebrity' because I only know of one film he has been in and I don't even know his name.) Anyway, it was Shooter McGavin from Happy Gilmore. so that was kinda fun.

The place we stayed was the Riu Palace and it was awesome. Now, I have never personally been on a cruise, but from what I have heard this place is pretty much like a cruise, but of course dry and stationary. EVERYTHING was included. Even room service and mini-bar. All of our meals, drinks you name it. The only thing we paid for in the hotel was tipping. It was great. Some of the waiters thought that we were so odd because we weren't drinking and I think we saved the hotel a lot of money that way.





















This is a shot of the hotel lobby. really doesn't do it justice, but you get the idea.

Front desk

lobby ceiling. breathtaking in person.

The view from our room. hard to tell but we could actually see the ocean.

Steve went deep sea fishing very early in the morning and caught this gorgeous shot of the sunrise.





Steve with his marlin. I think he said it was 7 1/2 feet long and weighed 220. could be off though. he was quite pleased.



















We spent A LOT of our time just walking on the beach and enjoying the water barely wetting our feet. This day we actually walked on the beach all the way into town. It was so fun just "window" shopping and bartering for the best price.




The hotel has 5 restaurants in it all of which are included in your stay. This particular night was the "Gourmet" restaurant. The other people are co-workers of Steve's, Breanne and Crissi, and their husbands, Trevor and Dave.



















A shot of another on-site restaurant, the Japanese one. We ate here another night.



















Another view of the hotel grounds.









This thing is driving me nuts! I am trying to get all the explanations under the photos and it isn't cooperating. Hope this isn't too painful to read. So, anyway, we had an awesome time and it was so great of Steve's job to pay for it all. I wish it were longer. I was not ready to come home. Oh, and from what I hear the boys did great and Steve's parents while we were gone too. So that was an unexpected blessing. I will post dolphin pics when Steve gets them to me.

beheading lions

Tonight we were playing with play-doh and Bronson kept having me make him lions. (you know with the little mold that you fold closed) anyway, as soon as he had one he promptly pulled its head off. he then put all the heads in one pile and all the bodies in another pile. kinda concerning, but SO funny! enjoy!